white rose journal

I had forget about my journal:|

YES. Once my best friend came over to my house to do a hwk and she left her email account open. She thought she had closed it but when I tried to enter my accout it was hers open. I could resist temptation and I read a couple of her email (nothing too interesting) and closed it.

None of the aboveee

Well, it'll depend on how paranoic I'm feeling at the moment:S

Knowing what you are willing to sacrifice for that new job. Organizing your priorities and knowing if the job is worthy

I am the oldest child in my family and I have barely realize how much it has influenciated me. I am a very mature person and I always try to take control of the situation. I am used to have a lot of responsabilities, I think I got used to it. I am used to get whatever I want because I sort of controled my brother when we were kids.

The Killers or popular song we all know by heart so we can happily sing along:)

To stop dreaming and begin living:)

I just had a terrible argument with my mother, which i'm gonna let go because this songs put me in a really good mood:D



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fps0S2N_N8U

I have been working on my tribute to Italy for about 2 months now, and I just can't finish it:@! I haven't been really working on it. I dropped it before I left for vacations and I havn't work on it anymore:(
The good thing is that I found why:
I am always using my laptop on my bed, which makes me really lazzy, sleepy and loss focus. So from  now on I'm using my laptop on my desk;) JAJAJAAJ Good 4 me:)

I love ALL of the Harry Potter books, but my favorite was definetely the 7th. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows is the one I found the most exciting one. I loved how she ended this fantastic series:)

Having nothing else to do in a time of the year popularly known as vacation, I find myself wondering how I have changed through these challenging teenage years. I know I am not the same girl I used to be, I can feel it in more ways than I can explain.  

I have always had the need to feel accepted and that has led me to try to adjust or modify my personality to be like others want be to be not how I really am. That battle of titans has located me in a middle point; a situation where I am not either of these two people. I am just there; without any strong enough beliefs and behaviors in order to say I have a defined personality. I can’t find that true and authentic me because I am so unbelievably scared of who I really am. I don’t know who I am so I am so afraid of finding out. I usually change according to the people I am surrounded by. If I am with nice people, I’ll be nice. If I am with mean people, I’ll let my mean side out. It’s so annoying! I change and I don’t even notice it. I learn little by little to be myself; at a slower speed than baby steps.

I wish so many times in a day to go back and live my Middle School again. Because I want so badly it had been different. Now I know why everything in my life right now is how it is. It’s so frustrating not knowing how to learn from those mistakes.

I want to make a change in my life; one that makes it better forever. Fortunately, I know exactly the change I need to make. I need to love myself and every single cell of my body. I need to nourish and enjoy every emotion I feel and everything I value in life because they make me who I am. I need to take great care of my body and soul.  I need to believe being alive is the most precious gift anyone has gotten. I need to look at life with gratefulness and not with resentments. These is the changes, I believe, are the ones that will lead me to happiness.

Its a total tie between my hometown Mexican food and Italian food:) I couldnt live without either one.

Dr. Temperance Brenan from Bones.

My dream vacations would be a summer traveling thtough Italy, specially Tuscany. Obviously with my friends or on my own:)

Probably I wouldnt buy the cookies, chips, juice, etc I buy during my free period everyday. Hey its $50 per week.

No real fabric clothes anymore. I think we'll be wearing  an all-time suit and sort of holograms will be displayed over that suit as the piece of clothing we want.

I once read a friends email. She came over to my house to do a hwk and she left her hotmail open. When she left I realized that and read some of her emails until I felt too guilty to continue.

Honestly, stay at home. My town doesn't have average summer temperatures. It is in the middle of the dessert and in the sumer the temperature is around 40°C and its really humid. So I prefer to stay at home or to go to my friends' pool late in the afternoon=)

Well according to my mother they were "ma" and "cher".  I called my grandma "ma" and her dog, a coker spaniel, was named "cher".

Baby Seal<3